More Random Thoughts From An Old Man

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Poppy

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Slept in to 5:30… sitting here with pudgy pup on my lap drinking coffee…with my mind wandering…again.

I have a very good friend that I’ve known or been around for over 40 years. He’s basically a good dude. We worked together in the plant for 30 years. He retired about a year before me. We were in okinawa (and several deployments) together in the USMC. Didn’t know each other but figured out we crossed paths on several occasions. He was a huey crew chief and I was on the ground side…talking at the plant we put two and two together and were in the same place… very possibly the same helo on several occasions.

Fast fwd to us having kids and them growing up together. I posted about his youngest son dying of cancer earlier this year. I loved that kid. Iraq vet… best friend of my daughter…since they were very young. Just a good kid.

Back to my buddy….as good of a dude as he was… he would spew out some vile crap…often. It would be nasty and hateful about everything. He was one of those that would say stupid crap in a crowd to be the center of attention and make everyone think wtf did he just say. It was too bad because I knew him long enough to know that besides that he was a good dude.

His first wife left him and soaked him for about 10 years. He recovered.

He got remarried and she died in his living room with hospice…slow and miserable…cancer. I held him in my arms as he cried like a baby.

His youngest son (who i spoke of earlier) died of cancer. Very successful great person. That one hurt me a lot.

A few months ago, his oldest nar do well son od’d and died. My buddy tried to help him over the years but that kid had bad issues.

His daughter… the oldest… has been in and out of prison for 20 plus years and I’ve been told that this stretch might be a long one. My buddy might not live long to see her out. Drugs, escalating crimes to support her drug habit.

I’ve said all that to ponder this: I wonder if god/karma/the universe is working to punish this dude. Basically, everyone he’s loved has been taken from him in one way or another. Like I said…most of his adult life consisted of him spewing absolutely vile stuff out…regularly and reoccurring.

Or maybe it was just some random events strung together…

He moved to Florida after retirement and we stayed in touch. I haven’t heard from him since his “good” son died. I quit trying to reach out. He might be dead for all I know.
 
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As far as God’s plan for adversity goes it can be that he allows us to go through these things just to show the world that as Christians we can move foward because of ohr faith just to point them towards him.
Thats just one possible option if he were a Christian.
You remember job in the bible thats the one that troubles me some. Allowed the devil to do all that to him and his family just to show the devil whose boss and job was just a pawn.
But who knows there’s always the tried and true
It rains on the just and the unjust
I believe life or karma or gods will is a mystery even when we are in the middle of it, we probably wont understand till the end of ut
 
Poppy said:
I daydream/ponder/codjutate everything often.

My wife gets on me for overthinking AND overbuilding AND overdoing almost everything!
Don’t stop, Poppy. That’s precisely what sets you apart. It can make life harder than it otherwise would be, no doubt. But can you imagine being you without doing that? I have to put that to myself all the time. Answer: NFW.
 
As for the God-thing or some metaphysical underpinning to life, I affirmatively disbelieve those things. To me, the challenge is to make meaning out of meaninglessness, smiling all the way.

(Prize to whoever first gets the reference.)
 
Camus tells us that the answer is to embrace the meaninglessness . The person who can truly know that life is absurd and get through it with a smile is an Absurd Hero .
 
Correct. The Myth of Sisyphus by Albert Camus. Rolling the ball up the mountain knowing that its just going to roll right back down to the bottom, causing you to have to roll it up the mountain again. An endless loop without purpose. All done while smiling even though you know how its all going to go.

Kinda encapsulates it all, doesn’t it?
 
Hence my favorite Nietzsche quotation: “Even the bravest among us only rarely has the courage for that which he truly knows.”

Indeed.
 
Like Nietzsche, who allegedly had sex once and got syphilis from it so badly it impaired his ability to digest food correctly for the rest of his life and, understandably, turned him off from getting down and dirty.
 
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