October 7th edition of diets and bodybuilding

[John]

Good fucking morning all…been laying awake since 436 contemplating life and all my recent fuck ups,it’s mentally draining.Didnt have breakfast yet.Gonna do back today we go to gym 1115-1215, afterwards their taking us on a hike which should bring me some peace and mental clarity.Hope everyone has a smooth and productive day.

 

[Poppy]

It’s my day off. Going to train something later.

Samo grub for me

 

[John]

How’s the weather in NC?

 

[Dirtnasty]

That’s was always the worst thing I could do
Is not sleep and think of all the things I’ve done wrong. I’ve learned to move
On from dwelling on my past and just make
My future better. I don’t have time
Machine so I can only change the future

 

[John]

Your right,but it’s hard to move on when the things I’m dwelling on are very recent and fresh,plus I haven’t been home since she dropped the divorce bomb,so yes I have time to get over it,but then I still gotta go to the house pack up my shit which I’m not looking forward to.

 

[Poppy]

The weather here is perfect. Highs in low mid 70’s and 50’s at night. Todays supposed to be close to 80 but it’ll drop tomorrow. Very low humidity.

Might be my favorite time…October to December.

 

[John]

Yes I love fall and winter

 

[Poppy]

I don’t mind the winter… i like it way more than the summer heat as I age.

 

[Poppy]

Thankfully the hurricane was pretty much a nonevent for my area.

 

[Aude_Aliquid_Dignu]

There is a fine line between reflecting and dwelling.
One you can learn and grow from, the other is an abyss of self loathing and punishment.

 

[Dirtnasty]

I hear ya man I used to go way back in my mind for dumb shit

 

[John]

Oh it’s definitely dwelling I’ve been doing.However I am on Paxil and it deadens my emotions for instance I usually can’t watch Iraq related movies without crying,on Paxil I can watch them all day and not shed a tear.So since the divorce news I’m not all that upset about it.Now when I tell my therapist that she’s like well that’s not necessarily a good thing.But it’s nice not getting to angry,or to sad,or to depressed.

 

[Poppy]

During my separation and divorce my doc had me on meds… I knew i had to take them to level me out but was glad to get off. I didn’t like not getting mad sad or happy.

 

[Aude_Aliquid_Dignu]

Maybe it’s a good opportunity to be a bit more objective while the emotions are deadened and work thru that grief curve…but what do i know.

 

[Mossy1985]

I need some of that. All my emotions lead to the one. Anger. Like i tell my kids. I wake up daily pissed off.

 

[Aude_Aliquid_Dignu]

Job?
Women?
Or too much oil??

Usually at least 1 if not all of the above.

 

[Dirtnasty]

Had arepas for dinner forgot to take pic

 

[Kad1]

Afternoon gents. Been super busy, work, training etc. had pull session today. Last min prepping for my wife’s first comp tomorrow.
@John happy to hear from ya

 

[John]

Let us know how the comp goes

 

[Kad1]

Will do