Good afterfuckinnoon. I been slacking lately,i had to take a step back and reevaluate my present situation,what i felt i needed 3 months ago,i no longer need,or want for that matter.I feel subdued,i laughed yesterday because of my woman and her kids,i cant remember the last time i actually laughed.Im in the process of goin off my meds,and taking a more Holistic approach to my medical needs.( yes my doctor knows,and the woman im working with is a Holistic Life Coach,and a good friend of mine) Anyways thats where im at,like normal,gym time and my diet take the hardest hit.The stopping of meds,is gonna take months,i been dependent on some kind of pill since after Iraq 2008… And i hate to admit it,but im scared of the process of coming off the meds,its a very fine line of sanity sometimes with these meds,i cant remember what its like to not be on meds…ok well trying to be positive,so HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE. EAT SOME GOOD FOOD TONIGHT,SMOKE A FEW JOINTS. AND BE GRATEFUL FOR WHAT WE HAVE IN THIS LIFE.