I know someone has to feel the same way I do. I have followed this subculture sport for 25 years, a lot of it competing and by stupidity, body dysmorphia, whatever, done stupid things and even when getting an all clear from docs, etc. Think about competition again and I’m as old as Piana, if true RIp, either way I’ve been praying. Over the years, I have full known at some point the tax with have to be paid. I understand very well that across the country mostly non steroid users were in medically induced coma to try to get them through. I am saddened by McCarver and Piana, truly…also it scares the shit out of me to a point. If I wake up Tomorrow, what will I do? Coffee, 12.5 of triacana or t3 maybe and cardio(?) Hopefully it’s aerobic! I was really hoping Piana was gonna pull through but it’s been too quiet.