Yeah without going in to much detail she has betrayed my trust and I don’t feel safe with her anymore, she is very controlling and our relationship is very toxic she never sees her part in the situation and I feel trapped and scared man it’s crazy. I’ve been through some difficult shit in my life, I was going to put that dude in the hospital and break shit but I didn’t, I acted in a mature manner but I’d be foolish to put myself in another situation like that. I have kids with her we bought a house together it’s so difficult but I can’t expose my kids to any type of violence even yelling, I grew up in a violent home and it’s not worth it to me. I’m acting with reason and I see all sides. I fall short and I see why she did what she did, I’m unable to provide her with what she needs.
I just want to say I appreciate you guys and your concern and you sharing you wisdom. I have a sponsor he’s 63 and he said to make a list of pros and cons. I have and it’s what I need to do, she’s comfortable in toxic relationships I can not do it. Well I’m getting ready to go to the Doc’s and see if I can get some meds to get me through this and see if I can get counseling, I don’t want to use any drugs but I do need something from the doc at this point to calm me down and get rest