Depression/anxiety/panic attacks
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Rusty
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Thanks bro.
@Poppy i have an opinion about suicide also. Selfish mother fuckers. Have people that love them and cherish them but when they in That dark place they don’t think about it. He has a kid my sons age that lived with him. What about him and his life. He was never asked to be fatherless and if he wanted a grandpa for his kids. So fucking selfish!!! He did have brain chemistry issues though and he never addressed them. This is the end result I guess
@Poppy i have an opinion about suicide also. Selfish mother fuckers. Have people that love them and cherish them but when they in That dark place they don’t think about it. He has a kid my sons age that lived with him. What about him and his life. He was never asked to be fatherless and if he wanted a grandpa for his kids. So fucking selfish!!! He did have brain chemistry issues though and he never addressed them. This is the end result I guess
anabolic_geek
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My thoughts on suicide and a the person is no longer in pain so don’t be sad. Calling to me
Selfish might be correct but it’s also selfish to say hey keep living so I’m not sad about. People generally move in from others dying that person may never get passed the shit that’s on their head. Just found out the chick I’m talking to o father killed himself and she says she has thoughts constantly as well. It actually made me more attracted to her cause she will understand that inyhink of that shit daily
Selfish might be correct but it’s also selfish to say hey keep living so I’m not sad about. People generally move in from others dying that person may never get passed the shit that’s on their head. Just found out the chick I’m talking to o father killed himself and she says she has thoughts constantly as well. It actually made me more attracted to her cause she will understand that inyhink of that shit daily
ANXIETY & BODY DYSMORPHIA
Figured Id chime in on this thread & maybe what I say will reach other young people out there, kind of long but my experiences with this so far.
I just turned 24, I also within the past 1-2 years started really having bad anxiety. I’ve found that it tends to stem from me always wanting to make everyone happy & when someone is upset with me I feel as if I have failed. It doesn’t even matter who, but the closer they are to me the worse the anxiety attack is… I am pretty sure it comes from when I was a child, my dad left when I was 1 my mom left when I was 3, she came back when I was 7. Then I was torn on being with my mom again or staying with my grandparents who had raised me. I just wanted everyone to be happy & if you have ever experienced being torn between two family members like this, you understand the toll it takes on you as a child.
It gets pretty bad to the point where I am about to black out. I feel the need to hit something, but don’t & if I do I hit my leg. It starts with my just fidgeting with my fingers then I start scratching my head repeatedly. I just start balling my eyes out & hyperventilate. Thankfully most times it only last about 10 minutes or so & then I lie down & fall asleep.
I have never told anyone this & probably never will because I am so embarrassed by it, but thankfully here I can at least put it out there. I hate that I have these panic attacks & get anxious often, but no matter what, weight lifting for these past 2-3 years has 110% saved me from taking my own life. I now feel as if I can do something for myself, I can mold my body even though my body dysmorphia does not help… I just feel so much more free after I hit the gym, as if all my anxiousness is left behind me. I hate my body, I have since I was a child, my family called my chubby, friends called me chubby, I will always see myself as a chubby guy, regardless of how others see me. I feel fucking small everyday. But I know that it just has to get better, if I stop now, then I will be even more disappointed in myself.
If anyone reads this, I hope you know that one day things will be okay, may not be soon, but they will be. I know my day will come where things line up for me in my life & I look forward to that day. I am glad I am here & get to share this sport with y’all.
Lastly, if you EVER need someone to message or just let your shit out, I got you. I’ll let you type it all out, even if you don’t want me to respond. But just so you have someone to tell it to. Now lets get fucking huge & get our mental in a better space. <3
Figured Id chime in on this thread & maybe what I say will reach other young people out there, kind of long but my experiences with this so far.
I just turned 24, I also within the past 1-2 years started really having bad anxiety. I’ve found that it tends to stem from me always wanting to make everyone happy & when someone is upset with me I feel as if I have failed. It doesn’t even matter who, but the closer they are to me the worse the anxiety attack is… I am pretty sure it comes from when I was a child, my dad left when I was 1 my mom left when I was 3, she came back when I was 7. Then I was torn on being with my mom again or staying with my grandparents who had raised me. I just wanted everyone to be happy & if you have ever experienced being torn between two family members like this, you understand the toll it takes on you as a child.
It gets pretty bad to the point where I am about to black out. I feel the need to hit something, but don’t & if I do I hit my leg. It starts with my just fidgeting with my fingers then I start scratching my head repeatedly. I just start balling my eyes out & hyperventilate. Thankfully most times it only last about 10 minutes or so & then I lie down & fall asleep.
I have never told anyone this & probably never will because I am so embarrassed by it, but thankfully here I can at least put it out there. I hate that I have these panic attacks & get anxious often, but no matter what, weight lifting for these past 2-3 years has 110% saved me from taking my own life. I now feel as if I can do something for myself, I can mold my body even though my body dysmorphia does not help… I just feel so much more free after I hit the gym, as if all my anxiousness is left behind me. I hate my body, I have since I was a child, my family called my chubby, friends called me chubby, I will always see myself as a chubby guy, regardless of how others see me. I feel fucking small everyday. But I know that it just has to get better, if I stop now, then I will be even more disappointed in myself.
If anyone reads this, I hope you know that one day things will be okay, may not be soon, but they will be. I know my day will come where things line up for me in my life & I look forward to that day. I am glad I am here & get to share this sport with y’all.
Lastly, if you EVER need someone to message or just let your shit out, I got you. I’ll let you type it all out, even if you don’t want me to respond. But just so you have someone to tell it to. Now lets get fucking huge & get our mental in a better space. <3
Rusty
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Thanks for sharing brother. @Tickle I am sitting I. The church now waiting for my buddys memorial service. I look at his kids and just can’t even imagine what they feel.
Your message was good for me to hear this morning. As far as my kids go being in two separate homes. Both their mother and I have shared way too much about how we feel as if we want our children to validate our feelings which I know is bullshit. They are not therapists. Now I may have some idea of what we could be doing to them long term if we don’t knock it off. I’ve been trying but when they come home and tell me shit about their mom I speak without thinking. I’m gonna get intentional now about shutting my mouth in front of the kids. Thanks for sharing brother.
We have an invite only group for support. It started AODA but really we all support any shit we go through. It’s private only the others in the group can see it. There are 21 of us so far. We also have weekly zoom meetings
Your message was good for me to hear this morning. As far as my kids go being in two separate homes. Both their mother and I have shared way too much about how we feel as if we want our children to validate our feelings which I know is bullshit. They are not therapists. Now I may have some idea of what we could be doing to them long term if we don’t knock it off. I’ve been trying but when they come home and tell me shit about their mom I speak without thinking. I’m gonna get intentional now about shutting my mouth in front of the kids. Thanks for sharing brother.
We have an invite only group for support. It started AODA but really we all support any shit we go through. It’s private only the others in the group can see it. There are 21 of us so far. We also have weekly zoom meetings
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bignasty
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Great words of which I directly resonate with. Appreciate all that you said, because its very similar almost identical to my current life experience. Good to see men and vets doing what we got to do to get better. I buried shit for years and as it always does, destroys your life if you let it. I was always the one who said all that anxiety and panic is bullshit until I experienced it myself and literally felt like I was going to fucking die. Add pent up anger from Iraq, divorce, etc and you start to question everything about yourself. Im getting better now, seeking help and asking for it. Always a work in progress but getting there. Good to see others on here with like circumstances and issues. Thanks for sharing
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