Yes sir , 22 years in a big city. Not sure if you know who Jocko Willink is. Navy seal Captain, he said one time “you can only see so much shit before something goes” had a little 3 month old baby die in my arms night before thanksgiving and I guess that was my point. All the other shit calls and by that I mean kids that I have seen die started coming up. I always preach that my door is always open, coffee is on and cold beer in the fridge so come over if you need to talk. Realized I was being a hypocrite because I needed help and didn’t get it. So before I ate a bullet figured I’d stop being a hypocrite amd get some help