Not to get any type of way, but the first 15 years of my adult life was a wreck. I was a mess man. Depressed, reckless, and just plain not happy. About 4 years ago, I started to look to for something besides alcohol, drugs and women. I always believed that there was a god, but I didn’t know how to interact with, or reach out to him, or how to have a relationship with him. I’m not saying that I started going to church, or got religious, but I started to try to grow myself spiritually. And after trying, I have. I have a great relationship now with my creator, and it’s only from thinking about if there was a god, what would he want me to be doing? I meditate every morning, in prayer, and all through the day focus on what I’m grateful for and then I thank God for it. I’m not saying any particular god, you don’t have to put a name on it, but I know that in doing this, my life has changed dramatically. I also found other people who had similar pasts as me, and talked about things like this. I hope this doesn’t offend anyone, and I hope that this can help