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[Dirtnasty]

Also my actually use my off days as off days not as bicep workouts. I need all the rest I can get with work and what not. Tried doing pendlay rows and even with straps it felt off so shutting it down

 

[Rusty]

Good idea.

 

[Anabisi]

I hear ya bro I took.off yesterday and today had too felt like I could.do.more but was burnt out…

 

[Dirtnasty]

My body is just not cooperating with me currently mind either but I’m doing what I can. These reoccurring sores I’m getting maybe my end. Though.

 

[Dirtnasty]

No double pay Friday cause I decided not to work slept for like 18 hours. And still tired also shower hurts my junk again so I’m as happy as ever

 

[Poppy]

Do you have health insurance?

If so, probably a good idea to drill down to cause of those sores.

 

[Dirtnasty]

Well it’s not std apparently. Need to find pcp I guess not the drug.

 

[Poppy]

A good pcp would be a good idea.

 

[Dirtnasty]

I’ll be honest if I don’t get this figured out in the next year I’m not living with this shit

 

[Mossy1985]

You’ll get it figured out bro. I’ve had set backs all year. It’s just been one of those years it seems. We just keep pushing forward though. No time to dwell on the past or stand still in the present. We adapt, improvise, and overcome!

 

[Poppy]

Please ask around in your area and find a good recommended pcp…. Start seeing them if you like them. Don’t let this minor stupid stuff be your bane.

 

[Dirtnasty]

Well back to sleep guess 18 hours wasn’t enough

 

[Dirtnasty]

Meal prep instead

 

[Dirtnasty]

I would say anything involving the penis isn’t minor. I’ve had maybe 4 weeks total since June sore free where there was no discomfort. It’s hard enough living with brain hating myself but now my body is attacking it’s like they are both wondering why I’m still here

 

[Dirtnasty]

Fucking warm up sets and I feel like I’m bout to pass out

 

[Dirtnasty]

Well my friend sent me
Shit about god and that was all I needed to pull seven plates. God better hope I don’t kill myslef anytime soon cause if that entity exist I’m coming for it in death. All the pain and misery it causes is bound to
Catch up. And I know some
Will say it’s loving god bs you can’t be all powerful anf not be the cause of the bad

 

[Dirtnasty]

I’m sorry if That offends anybody I actually don’t believe in any man made religion so I’m just placing my anger towards a fictional character in my mind but it helps

 

[JLee]

The god stuff doesn’t bother me one bit. What does bother me is this talk about hurting yourself. Knock it off

 

[Dirtnasty]

I’ve been suicidal my whole
Life I talk openly so the thoughts get out of my head otherwise they just go at a loop. You’ll know I turned the corner when they go from talking of doing it to making jokes about it. But I grew up seeing how diseases neurological and what not affect people and there is point I won’t live with it. Here’s the deal people didn’t want others to die for there own selfish reasons. Why should a person who is never happy always in pain continue living juat so other don’t have to feel bad. Why is that fair to the person

 

[JLee]

It’s hard to tell sometimes when reading it. I’m not trying to be preachy bud I just can’t tell if your venting or being serious.