PhD has a rep to keep, I could easily fuck around but it would go against my real life oath. That’s why I always would only fuck myself up!!! What a honor but I decline. If TG wants I could do a very sick, sordid, nubain article and how it totally fucked up people…but the problem is its still out there and people will look for it. Just like all the idiots I was with. 270,multiple champs…shit Paul Demayo(rip) everyone did temgesic or buprenex which wasn’t scheduled until it was used in medicated assisted opiate/oid withdrawal. Bro science told us(duchaine and his followers) that it was a partial agonist at the mu receptor, so no tolerance no addiction…we bought it. Not knowing as a kid that tolerance and physical dependence is much different then addiction. There’s a tangential response, kinda. What happen to tony huge or that whole thing. Started out ok but maybe this bbing lifestyle can creep up on you. Drugs, more drugs, women , men that look like women, women that have become men. Maybe it different since internet maybe not. In the 80s and 90s the goal was to do as little work as possible and train, hangout, train…maybe somewhere in Ohio or upper Michigan guys would train and work but not on both coasts and even Chicago and Detroit. My friend and would have been great pro, won the America and beat out troy Z. For best bber of that year in musclemag and on American muscle. He received tons of mail from fans…a couple guest posing. Mostly it was all muscle “worship” mail. No pay for pics. 6 magazines and no sponsors. It was them doing you a favor. There was some comraderie and fun. You had to be a little twisted and still do. What part of the population wants to do squats with 405 until you puke. Or get lean that your feet hurt from no fat. Not many. Even the fact that a totally straight male can look at another like art. Focusing on ham glute tie ins, c’mon. I have always liken it to when I heard we were like sculptors.