Help with accountability
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BigSwole69
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Outlawthing
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Good to hear you back in gym we all fuck up boss it’s where you go from there that makes the man
paramexer
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the first step is being real with yourself and it helps to tell other people what you’re going through. so good job. setting new goals and having a new start is key to leave the bullshit behind. we all go through things but this is a great outlet for everyone. thanks for speaking up @CA
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VictoryKnocks
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I’ve been getting out of control lately also, and I’m not talking a couple drinks either. I’ve still been making progress lifting and in my relationships and at work, so I’ve felt like what I’ve been doing was ok, but I woke up today and watched a video by Jocko Willink and at first it got me so motivated but all that came crashing down. I just realized that with everything I’ve ever done I’ve just missed the mark every time by a small margin. To quote Blink “A day late, a buck short, I’m writing the report, on losing and failing, when I move I’m flailing”.
Now it’s too late to do the things I was meant to. I’m just a few years too old and have had a few too many documented issues to proceed with with the shit I should be doing. I feel like I was blessed with a lot of gifts many others don’t have, most would kill to be in my shoes, but my demons eat me up from the inside out.
I’ll calm down and get back to the grind eventually, but feels good to vent a little. Hope everyone is killing it out there
Now it’s too late to do the things I was meant to. I’m just a few years too old and have had a few too many documented issues to proceed with with the shit I should be doing. I feel like I was blessed with a lot of gifts many others don’t have, most would kill to be in my shoes, but my demons eat me up from the inside out.
I’ll calm down and get back to the grind eventually, but feels good to vent a little. Hope everyone is killing it out there
CA
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I feel you brother. Sometimes we can be our own worst enemy. I find with myself that stress is my biggest trigger with wanting to drink… life is a bitch sometimes.
I totally agree with what you said about falling short and missing the mark but just by a small margin… I’m 41 . Getting older. Probably could consider this the halfway point. I gotta keep my head on straight and get past the midlife crisis stuff.
I been rewatching a lot of Rich Pianas videos. Miss that guy. I find a lot of motivation in his philosophy. I’m trying to get back in that mind set.
Wish you the best brother. Soldier on
I totally agree with what you said about falling short and missing the mark but just by a small margin… I’m 41 . Getting older. Probably could consider this the halfway point. I gotta keep my head on straight and get past the midlife crisis stuff.
I been rewatching a lot of Rich Pianas videos. Miss that guy. I find a lot of motivation in his philosophy. I’m trying to get back in that mind set.
Wish you the best brother. Soldier on
VictoryKnocks
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Thank you for the great response. I’m sure you’ve been able to do a lot of great things other people would never be able to (like obviously building a great physique!!) but I understand it doesn’t really seem to matter when you’re feeling the way it sounds like we’ve both been feeling. I’m about 13 years younger than you are, but I’ve been just starting to notice the mileage. Seems like just yesterday i felt like I’d never get older now 30 is right around the corner and 40 doesn’t seem far off at all!
Appreciate you sharing. Actually made me feel a lot better.
Oh, also crazy coincidence you and @Bigmurph have both been watching Rich lately because I’ve been watching some Bigger By The Day. I feel like Rich was kind of treated like a cartoon character, for lack of a better term, when he was alive. Lot of people poked fun at him, but he actually had so much wisdom and honestly seemed like he really cared about people.
Hope things get better for you soon brother
Appreciate you sharing. Actually made me feel a lot better.
Oh, also crazy coincidence you and @Bigmurph have both been watching Rich lately because I’ve been watching some Bigger By The Day. I feel like Rich was kind of treated like a cartoon character, for lack of a better term, when he was alive. Lot of people poked fun at him, but he actually had so much wisdom and honestly seemed like he really cared about people.
Hope things get better for you soon brother
that happens touch base whenever you feel like it bro all the best 
CA
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Man … been a while since I posted after my last bad oops…I was ashamed of my relaps man but again I gotta keep posting …pride sycks but this is the reason I was open about my issue…
First let me say… Sigs i appreciate you man. I’ve taken everything you said to heart i mean that.
Next I’d like to say that that last relaps i asked mods to delete man I’m sorry bout that. And I very much appreciate the way you handled cleaning it up. The next day I was so embarrassed… much love for your handling that for me
Lastly this is going to be where I make excuses but I just want this to be out un the open… I was good till I got word that there was a death in the family that was soo dear to my heart… I know that’s just an excuse and man I said I’d do my best to stay sober… and honestly I failed at that promise… I went straight to the bottle… and kept at it for three days …
Man long story short I dont usually make deals I cant keep even with strangers… there will always be triggers … and triggers are not an excuse to not follow through with your word.
Now the good.
That was a small break in me being sober… I’m on the wagon now. I am definitely sorry … and I’m still hoping you guys got my back.
Lastly Sigs. My bad bro. I appreciate you man. I’m sorry I was a bit out there. I wish I could say it wont happen again but all I can promise is I’ll do my best and I hope you have my back again if I fail or succeed… hell we dint even know each other but you had my back on this. Your solid in my book.
Again I do apologize… sorry I didnt post up somthing sooner I was just really ashamed and not wanting to deal with it. I much appreciate you guys
First let me say… Sigs i appreciate you man. I’ve taken everything you said to heart i mean that.
Next I’d like to say that that last relaps i asked mods to delete man I’m sorry bout that. And I very much appreciate the way you handled cleaning it up. The next day I was so embarrassed… much love for your handling that for me
Lastly this is going to be where I make excuses but I just want this to be out un the open… I was good till I got word that there was a death in the family that was soo dear to my heart… I know that’s just an excuse and man I said I’d do my best to stay sober… and honestly I failed at that promise… I went straight to the bottle… and kept at it for three days …
Man long story short I dont usually make deals I cant keep even with strangers… there will always be triggers … and triggers are not an excuse to not follow through with your word.
Now the good.
That was a small break in me being sober… I’m on the wagon now. I am definitely sorry … and I’m still hoping you guys got my back.
Lastly Sigs. My bad bro. I appreciate you man. I’m sorry I was a bit out there. I wish I could say it wont happen again but all I can promise is I’ll do my best and I hope you have my back again if I fail or succeed… hell we dint even know each other but you had my back on this. Your solid in my book.
Again I do apologize… sorry I didnt post up somthing sooner I was just really ashamed and not wanting to deal with it. I much appreciate you guys
sorry for your loss
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