Help with accountability

[Dmomuchole]

Got 2 1/2 years clean and haven’t had a drink in over 8. It’s been a rough road brother as you know it’s jails institutions and death for us bro. Our dis ease wants us alone and isolated, it wants me dead. I never try to speak at a fellow addict, I only want to share my experience strength and hope. You seem like a smart guy, and that’s a big deal to be willing to put your shit out there man, takes a lot of courage. Your desire to stay clean is still there. There are many addicts in my area with many years that relapsed recently and I was close myself, so like these guys said before me your not alone and it seems like you got a lot love and support. Stay safe brother

 

[Dmomuchole]

Vulnerability is something I struggle with everyday bro. But being vulnerable and allowing myself to be a part of intamate relationships has allowed me to stay clean.

 

[McSwickles]

We definitely have your back brother! Proud of you for getting back on the wagon! I’m gonna steal a quote from our motivational posts thread: the pain you feel today will be the strength you feel tomorrow!! Keep at it bro!

 

[Rusty]

Hey @CA. I can’t have one of anything. It’s all or nothing then I end up in jail for something stupid sleeping on plastic pillows and smelling ass all day. Haven’t been there for a while thank God. I got lucky that I never did anything stupid enough to lose my coaching privileges. I did however lose a lot of friends and family through my addiction. On my second marriage now. I always wanted to be like my grandpa and be a fireman but any alcohol related offenses killed that cause they won’t hire someone the insurance companies won’t let drive a truck. But I found a place called Samaritans Hand. It is a faith based organization. I have faith in what they believe. I believe in God and Jesus. (May not sound like it sometimes). Anyways I ain’t here to talk to you about what I believe. It works for me. But it’s about faith. If I don’t have faith in something it doesn’t work for me never has. I have faith in my God for salvation. I have faith in Samaritans Hand because it’s filled with a bunch of people like me. I have faith in this place because I have tested the waters and trust what these guys tell me about my goals and choices of dealing with change I want to make. Don’t k ow what you believe that’s up to you. But if there are any faith based AODA organizations around you check them out Bro!!! It works for a lot of people and trust me you cannot tell those guys anything they haven’t done themselves.

Sorry about your loss and God Bless

 

[Outlawthing]

I’m with rusty boss if I indulge in anything at all my sobriety is gone struggles never go away never get easy no judgement here on this site do t be embarrassed man I feel ashamed when I think back at all the crap things I have done because of a pill or some dope

 

[Sig516]

yeah its a bitch having to explain to a Dr. I refuse pain killers lol. Had all 4 wisdom teeth removed no gas, no pills. He thought I was nuts …you outta see me on pills

 

[Dirtnasty]

I get the same looks when I tell them I allergic to tramadol. I usually then for no reason tell them I’m stim person not an opiate person.

 

[Sig516]

Ha ha

 

[Dirtnasty]

If I need pain meds I’ll hit up my weed guy

 

[CA]

I am a Christian bro. Not a great one somtimes lol but definitely have faith. Thank you for the response. I’ll look into it and see what’s around. I’m in central Florida. I’m sure there’s places here like what your talking about. Also it probably wouldn’t be a bad idea for me to start going to church service again. Been a long time

 

[CA]

Ya man pills and booze… I’m a shit show on it. No good man lol. Not at all

 

[CA]

Thanks for all the responses guys. I appreciate all your support

 

[Rusty]

There is no such thing as a great Christian brother. We fall short it’s biblical. If anyone ever thinks they have arrived they better reread their bible There has ever only been one and you know who he is. I miss church. With the whole Corona thing haven’t gone in a while. I have a disabled daughter that is very week and I can’t risk exposing her or the other kids to that. Glad to hear your a believer. Now stop fighting for victory and start fighting from victory you already have it!!! A famous quote from one of my mentors.

 

[paramexer]

onward! keep your head up! hard to take my own advice but dwelling on the past robs you of enjoying the present. hopefully you’ve been able to put the bad feelings aside and keep your goals in mind.

this goes for everyone …

UGM is here when you need to vent, we have all been through some shit. you can even post anonymously if you felt the need. this is a really solid community with a lot of great people and i wouldn’t say that if i didn’t mean it. some folks on here will listen better than “friends”

 

[Rusty]

Hey bro! Here is a quote from one of my brothers at Samaritans Hand. Why is the windshield bigger than the rear view mirror? Because what is in front of you is more important than what’s behind you!!

Have a GREAT DAY brother!!!

 

[CA]

Amen brother!

 

[Outlawthing]

I’m glad to see you here talking to us on my former site we had a member pass away from a relapse to drugs and we had saw him work hard in his personal life and gym so when in doubt boss hit one of us up email me if you need To I talk to and respect y’all guys more than general public don’t do Facebook or Insta tweet or whatever but if anyone needs something and I can help I will I would hate to see one of you guys in the bad and busted or obituary

 

[Rusty]

Hows it going brother! Haven’t heard from you in a while. Been thinking about you and wanted to check in. You ever find a faith based group? Where in Florida are you at? I use to live in Plant City but that was 25 years ago.

 

[CA]

I’m good bro. Ya man I’m still sober been great for a good stretch this time.
I live in winter haven now. Bout to move back to my home town in Nebraska here in a couple weeks. I have better job opportunities there and most my family is there. Think itll be a good change … healthy for me. I have a interview today and another one next week to work in alaska for a few months on a fishing boat. Hopefully that works out cuz it will finance my move and set me up really well.
If I get either of those positions they list that there is limited cell service out there so I’ll keep you guys posted if and when I go. May be unable to get online for a couple months. I’m not really sure … itll be my first contract on a boat. New experience and first time to Alaska which has been on my bucket list. I’m excited. Hope it works out.

 

[Rusty]

Great news brother!!! Being around family has always been healthy for me. So your a corn husker eh!!! I remember when they were good in football. Back in Michigan’s glory years. Don’t be afraid to ask at the interviews if guys on board the fishing boat are gonna be drinking all the time. Just a thought. Fisherman here in the Great Lakes drink like fish. Don’t know about Alaska but your sobriety is number one brother no matter how much money!!!

Good to hear from you. Keep me posted on your journey.