I train uninspired, I keep my internal volume around 3… I get amped easily, it’s a mixture of being unstable, self loathing, and just a general sense of hate towards most things in the world today… my family (wife and daughters) and my happy pills and a whole lot of weed help curb that now. I don’t need much to turn my internal volume to 10… I can close my eyes for a second and when I open them, red, and I’m ready to go… my dark place is full, and it’s really easy for me to get there. it was great for powerlifting, and most sports I played growing up and through college, but it put a lot of un necessary strain on other things in my life.