Have you looked into any meetings in your local area. I definitely need support group and a fellowship and to be in a safe place where others relate to you and place where you feel you belong. I’m telling you Rusty step work is the bread and butter of any recovery program and we should do step work with another addict.
If you Google NA AA there will be a hotline number for your area and someone in your area should be able to tell when and where the next meeting is. You seem like a guy that would benefit greatly from a self help group. You get along really well with others. Love you bro, it’s one day at a time an play the tape all the way through when your mind tells you drinking is a good idea. Fast forward to the part where you lose everything an end up getting locked up, becoming homeless, destroying our relationships with our loved ones . That’s what I do and it parks my desire to drink immediately. I’ll tell you what though in the summer an ice cold beer sounds really good but I know I get violent and destructive.
What are you struggling with brother?