MAY 29TH ISSUE OF DIETS AND TRAINING.

John

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Goodfuckinmorning all.No work. Maybe gym later...ive got lots of energy and anxiety today,got a appointment with my head shrink today,and I'm gonna be all over the place,it's dam near impossible for me to sit still for a hour,the video appointment is thru the phone,and I will sit down talk,get up pace,sit down talk,so I keep popping in n out the video lol,she will be like ,hello John,where did you go.Probably go fishing later,..I'm gonna do other things,no clue what,but ima do some shit...don't feel like posting my meals,cause who really gives a shit what I eat.hope everyone has a smooth and productive day.
 
Life has been shit, I don’t eat, I lift still but without purpose..
my 26 year old graduated from med school yesterday with her MHA… my 18 year old is going to graduate HS early in October and my 30 year old just found out her husband is cheating on her… all my girls are slowly coming back into my life, but the world doesn’t feel right still. As much as I hate my (ex)wife, I miss my normal…. This new normal, trying to adapt at 45, not so good on the psyche

We spoke the other night about our oldest and her situation, which turned into a fight.. she hates our oldest, thinks she ruined our lives, and I always defend her… *unt ended the conversation with “do the world and our girls a favor and go kill yourself”
 
Life has been shit, I don’t eat, I lift still but without purpose..
my 26 year old graduated from med school yesterday with her MHA… my 18 year old is going to graduate HS early in October and my 30 year old just found out her husband is cheating on her… all my girls are slowly coming back into my life, but the world doesn’t feel right still. As much as I hate my (ex)wife, I miss my normal…. This new normal, trying to adapt at 45, not so good on the psyche

We spoke the other night about our oldest and her situation, which turned into a fight.. she hates our oldest, thinks she ruined our lives, and I always defend her… *unt ended the conversation with “do the world and our girls a favor and go kill yourself”
Glad to hear the girls coming around again bud
 
Life has been shit, I don’t eat, I lift still but without purpose..
my 26 year old graduated from med school yesterday with her MHA… my 18 year old is going to graduate HS early in October and my 30 year old just found out her husband is cheating on her… all my girls are slowly coming back into my life, but the world doesn’t feel right still. As much as I hate my (ex)wife, I miss my normal…. This new normal, trying to adapt at 45, not so good on the psyche

We spoke the other night about our oldest and her situation, which turned into a fight.. she hates our oldest, thinks she ruined our lives, and I always defend her… *unt ended the conversation with “do the world and our girls a favor and go kill yourself”
Give it time you are adapted to toxic once you adapt the other way it will be so much better
 
What if she’s right and I’m the problem.. what if I’m everyone’s Kryptonite and I don’t see it.. what if everything breaks because I break it

The worst part is, I got a phone call from my therapist saying she had to cancel all her
Appointments this coming week… now I don’t even have that to look forward to
 
What if she’s right and I’m the problem.. what if I’m everyone’s Kryptonite and I don’t see it.. what if everything breaks because I break it

The worst part is, I got a phone call from my therapist saying she had to cancel all her
Appointments this coming week… now I don’t even have that to look forward to
The girls are coming back into your life for a reason. Obviously they love you...Chill out. It'll all come in time brother...
 
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What if she’s right and I’m the problem.. what if I’m everyone’s Kryptonite and I don’t see it.. what if everything breaks because I break it

The worst part is, I got a phone call from my therapist saying she had to cancel all her
Appointments this coming week… now I don’t even have that to look forward to
Dam her
 
Since I don’t have anything to lose, I think I’m going to ride the Tren Train for the first time in 25 years… should be interesting. I’ve noticed my body does not like certain things any more, anadrol and EQ make me feel like my blood is pure molasses.. my HGB and HCT are both high according to my last bloods, but I’m running NPP @ 50mg EOD and 400 mg/wk test
 
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