What are you lifting today
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It’s crazy how shit from your past can haunt you years and years down the line. I start thinking about things, and then I dwell on them until I completely consumes me, then I get anxiety over it… shit I did almost 30 years ago… and it just fucks me up for days to think about how shitty I was at one time
I sometimes lay down for bed, and in my mind, I replay things that happened over seas, but I I change it so it was a better situation. and that’s how I fall asleep, I can’t stop it, I dwell on it over and over and fuckin over, like it was already said, its sickening.
Yeah I can never fall
Asleep when I lay the brain just gets more active. Thinks of of all the scenarios of things I’ve fucked yo or how I’m going to fuck up in the future. It’s been getting better recently seems the longer I go clean the better it is
Asleep when I lay the brain just gets more active. Thinks of of all the scenarios of things I’ve fucked yo or how I’m going to fuck up in the future. It’s been getting better recently seems the longer I go clean the better it is
That’s a dangerous situation to be in, viz., having enough resources to get whatever is your drug of choice. My career requirements and having three kids effectively forced me to give up everything. It’s only now, with most of my career behind me, grown kids and more resources, that the struggle has become acute again.
I hear you. I do this do. Regular nighttime recriminations of what I could have been or done and how I fucked it up. But you can’t let the past determine the future.
Rolled for an hour with 230-240lb animals. Got tapped out 3x.
Next…
Dead lift 5x5 up to 80%
Prone leg curl 4x8 building each set
Single leg DB rdl 3x8-10 per leg
Then more conditioning
10 power clean @135
10 burpee
10 toes to bar
Rest 1min
4rds
Then… work 6p-8am
Next…
Dead lift 5x5 up to 80%
Prone leg curl 4x8 building each set
Single leg DB rdl 3x8-10 per leg
Then more conditioning
10 power clean @135
10 burpee
10 toes to bar
Rest 1min
4rds
Then… work 6p-8am
You are 100% correct. I am not the brightest bulb on the tree by any means. I should know better but still have that warrior mentality. Jitz actually doesn’t hurt that’s why I’m still training. No quad work in the gym. So I’ve modified everything so that I can train around the injury.
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