PCT 40+ will be rough. I was miserable in my 20s during PCT, can’t imagine 40.
I would seriously consider TRT if you really want to be about this life. Otherwise, keep training natty. You aren’t competing to my knowledge, just be healthy and happy. I think at a certain point, you just have to choose if running gear is worth it and how that plays out the rest of your life.
I’m 30 on TRT now, my natural T just can’t recover at this point. I tried after a year of it. This is a life long thing for me. Always needing to get test, I travel a lot as well. I have to pin every week if not 2x a week. I have to keep running blood test and keep a healthy homeostasis because my body can’t anymore. I have some minor kidney issues from gear, I have to watch my diet. This becomes a long term lifestyle. Some good, some bad. I can’t say if it’s something worth it for you or anyone else.
There is also a addictive aspect of gear most bros don’t want to admit to themselves. Once I got on, I never wanted to come off and I always wanted to get back on. It’s the difference between man vs superman for me. I would have gotten myself on TRT if I never ran eventually, but I’m on it now at 30. Thats for the rest of my life.