—UPDATE—
Well guys, I’ve been slacking hard for the passed couple weeks. I apologize. This is sort of becoming more of my diary than first cycle log haha.
I live in a northern state and am prone to depression, especially in the darker winter months. After getting smashed up a little bit I got extra depressed for awhile and soon after found out my GF has become pregnant with our second child. It’s still early so I can’t really tell anyone about it, and the stress of all this has been crushing down on me.
I started missing meals, which it’s really hard for me to get on a good eating schedule, and when I fuck up it takes awhile to bounce back. I don’t have a good digestive system. I stopped taking my supps, slacked test back to 150 mg a week, missed a few shots, generally stopped taking care of myself the way anyone should, let alone someone trying to grow.
I’m starting to feel a lot better now, gonna quit being a wimp and make myself stronger for myself and my family. I think we all, as men, think we can fight better than we really can. When that dream gets shattered by reality, it can hurt, and you’ve often gotta wear your failures on your face for the whole world to see.
This is gonna help me in the long term.