I will say this much talking to people helps. I don’t like airing out my business but when it comes to sobriety of any kind wether people admit it or not we need help, someone to talk to, no judgement just accountability I still talk to my councilors. And I was on the verge of loosing my family when I finally took the step to talk to people. I still struggle with it. It’s always going to be there. I can ignore it most days but sometimes it takes help to keep the ship pointed in the right direction.