Dirts 2g of test test log

[JLee]

You certainly don’t look frail from being sick. Looking massive as always.

 

[Dirtnasty]

I didn’t lose weight

 

[Rusty]

Looking huge as usual. I think you’ll be fine come meet day

 

[Dirtnasty]

I’m feeling better about hitting 700 in comp now. 575 on bench and squat anything over 609 I’ll be happy

 

[Dirtnasty]

I’ll be going out tomorrow with some ex coworkers from Lowe’s wel I hope. I know the guy is coming out but our female friend that’s been feeling down recently as well is up in the air.

 

[Rusty]

You got time for this brother. Just work it up slow. You don’t want to get injured this stage in game. Big weight big injury. Don’t rush it to hard.

 

[Dirtnasty]

Oh that’s not time to do real prep but I’ll push the way I know how and just use this as experience to know what to expect next go round.

 

[Dirtnasty]

Noon game today hope I can nap before meeting friends tonight

 

[Poppy]

College football?

 

[Dirtnasty]

Yep Tosu vs Oregon fox puts there biggest game of the week at noon now to try and win that slot big. Oils have preferred leave game and I’m sure Oregon fans would as well

 

[Dirtnasty]

Hitting triceps cause I didn’t really do much for them yesterday May try out the jacobs ladder just to kill time I’m afraid to sit and lay down and sleep
Through game

 

[Rusty]

What’s jacobs ladder

 

[Poppy]

Cardio machine

 

[Dirtnasty]

Don’t try I socks only hahah slipped right off. For tris I was hitting 415 sets of 3 on close grip pin presses. So I think now that the eq is kicked in and the ment is golf with sd I’m going to get some big gains going

 

[Rusty]

I’ve seen those. Never tried them before. Maybe in my last couple weeks am gonna hard cut. Looks like a good calorie burner.

 

[Dirtnasty]

Life can be a struggle. I’m trying right now. But I Ben when making good decisions I don’t feel any better

 

[Poppy]

You ok big man?

Hold strong… good decisions pay off in the long run. Bad decisions do not.

 

[Dirtnasty]

Just super depressed happens this time of year I mean like stay in bed for 24 hours straight depressed. I have to stop myself from drivinnngin concrete barriers. I think of killing myslef daily. But when these episodes happens it’s a constant. And almost unbearable. Unfortunately for me I have no reactions good or bad to ssri’s. It just sucks having my own brain hate me.

 

[PNWmuscle]

You talking with a therapist? Best thing I ever did. Sorry to hear you’re struggling. I wouldn’t sit on it and just wait it out though, sounds like you need to reach out to a professional for help. You got some big goals so get that handled so you can keep pushing towards them bud

 

[Poppy]

Oh lord. Is it football (this time of year)?