I would seriously reconsider using AAS. The amount of stress and anxiety you place on yourself to me isn’t worth it. I deal with anxiety every day along with depression. I’m on a few meds to take the edge off, buuuut, if I’m doing something that amplifies my issues. I tend to steer away from them. War movies. And real violence in movies. (I mean realistic type) I tend to stay away from as I’ve gotten older. It’s really not worth your health to live in that level. Trust me. I was the “fuck that. I’ll man up” guy. But the older I get the harder it is to “man up” why the 22 a day in the US is usually an older crowd. It becomes harder to manage as we age. Just my advice my friend.