Apology to the board

[Dirtnasty]

Not sure where to put this. But for the past year I lied to everybody here about not using coke when instead I just lessened use. The past three weeks I started binging pretty hard to the point I wasn’t training and even was high at work a few times. I’m currently in the process of looking at treatment options. I wish I could say that it finally stopped being fun but it hasn’t been fun in in almost 4 years. It turned from something I did partying to something I did to keep my self down. I can’t make any promises goig forward but I do know I’m tired of not letting myself be the best version of me I can be hopefully this is the last time I have to deal with this shit as I’m getting to old and the body won’t recover like it has uo until this point. This apology to you guys is as much a apology to myself I have to get the issues in my head figured out and I’m willing to do so now. So if I’m not around much know I’m hopefully getting the help I need moving forward

 

[Poppy]

Apology accepted but not necessary.

Don’t beat yourself up too bad. Your behavior is more typical than not.

You are correct… you’re not getting any younger….

 

[JLee]

No worries. Please keep us posted if you have any luck finding a decent place to go to for help.

 

[Cluster]

Damn brother were here 4 you coke is tuff to quit in my opinion but no need to apologize to us just get better

 

[Jonny]

Get well brother! Very few things worth while are easy so be strong.

 

[John]

Well what the fuck… anyways,as long as your gettin honest with yourself then your on the right track,were here if you need it buddy.

 

[Symarip85]

Good first step bro. It’s gonna take a while to get straightened out but it’ll be worth it. We’re here if you need support, even just to get shit off you chest like you did.

 

[Thunder]

That’s how you get better brother
Telling the truth
Proud of ya man!

 

[NeuroRN]

Well what the fuck… anyways

This is it right here.

Apology accepted. Thanks for apologizing. It’s all been said. You’re being honest with yourself. That is what counts. Get well. Then come back and bench the house.

 

[Kad1]

No apology needed. Just make sure those words mean something. Having a brother who is an addict I understand how hard it is but better people than me and you have done it so get on it.
Good luck bud

 

[squatter]

I wish you the best of luck in your treatment, i know it is horrible my brother has suffered from polysubstance abuse for many years, i know it. You can do it, just take it one day at a time.

 

[Dirtnasty]

Thinking of cutting off the hair as symbolism but scared once I do that it won’t grow back. Still feel a bit off I think the last shit I did was def lace with fent as I’ve never had withdrawals from coke I slept for a good 2 days and still had shakes and cold sweats the other day. Me and chick I know hat is in recover are trying to set dates up to do meetings together. She currently is in woman’s only I said I dress drag. I’m not expecting a big change in how well training goes but I’m hopeing being more consistent and not having days of no food should help with growth. I’m not worried about falling off anytime soon it’s the few i that down the line when I’m feeling really good physically and mentally that I worry the itch to just do a little will arise. Hopefully the meetings and therapy will be the weapon against that.

 

[Ominous]

It is not easy from what I hear but, if you want it then make it happen.
Always here for you when you need us.

 

[Shock6050]

As others said, no apologies to us needed….most important is you have recognized and am doing something about it! Wish the best to you….you got this.

 

[Poppy]

I worry the itch to just do a little will arise

That will subside a little at a time over the years. Don’t get me wrong, it’ll always be there but will be less and less.

 

[Poppy]

I dress drag.

Blahahaha

 

[Ominous]

One day at a time. One hour at a time. One minute at a time. Whatever it takes.

 

[johnjuanb1]

It’s ok, Brotha! You don’t owe us an apology. Just do the best you can. One day at a time. I was addicted to opiates and crystal. The best thing I did was ditch everyone who was doing drugs. I don’t blame my friends by any means, but I knew I had to avoid anyone who did those things in order to stay clean. After years passed I no longer crave drugs; they hold no appeal to me. I used them for self confidence around women and for energy to get through work. Try to stay positive and never pick on yourself.

 

[Dmomuchole]

Good luck brother and right on for taking responsibility. Coke was my downfall 4 years ago and it’s a vicious cycle, it started out fun for me then there became a physical dependency then it became the only thing I cared about. I was worthless pice of shit when I got finished.

 

[Symarip85]

That fentanyl scares the shit outta me. It wasn’t really around when I got straight but it was on the horizon. I’m afraid of that shit and the reckless abandon of dealers cutting their product with it. And putting it in the coke is super dangerous cause of how much of it you can take down, dope is a small amount drug to begin with so it’s a little better. I’m sure if there was fentanyl in coke when I was out there shooting it, it would’ve buried me for sure. Scary shit bro, really good time to get straight.