Back in the gym after a month - age 53 - built by Flash⚡️Labs

[Bigmurph6]

At home only but I have a solid setup

I hit arms and some shoulder training

 

[johnjuanb1]

As hard as it is, it feels impossible in the moment, when you feel that rage you have to physically leave where you are immediately and get away from everyone. I’ve felt that rage and it scared the shit out of me. It’s like stepping outside of your body and watching things unfold and not knowing what your body will do. It could go one of two ways: you wake up and you’re surrounded by dead bodies, or you leave the situation. That happened to me at a time when I went out of my way to be so kind to everyone, I emulated Jesus and lived as such, only to find all of those people talked behind my back and the women said I was too nice which was seen as weak. The kinder I was, the more I was mistreated. Does this sound familiar?

 

[Bigmurph6]

No that’s not my kinda crazy to be honest but everyone is different I have problems I don’t discuss but my stomach I can discuss the others stay private to a point I severe anxiety and ptsd that I can admit but its worse than that

 

[johnjuanb1]

Damn man! That sounds awful’

 

[Bigmurph6]

Everyone has problems so im just dealing with this bs but yeah it has sucked for along time now

 

[johnjuanb1]

Can you get food down today ?

 

[Bigmurph6]

2 eggs and half bagle but just from that I will pay for eating my stomach goes topsy-turvy and its painful and bloats no diarrhea sometimes blood

 

[johnjuanb1]

Jeez! I wonder why the lining of your stomach is bleeding when you put food in it? Do ulcers cause that?

EDIT: Had to fix, autocorrect sucks

 

[Bigmurph6]

Its on the list of possibilities im going to a GI and getting scoped it takes forever no insurance

 

[johnjuanb1]

Can you get Obamacare ?

 

[Bigmurph6]

Nope

 

[johnjuanb1]

That sucks!

 

[Bigmurph6]

Really bad because insurance is what I need badly

 

[johnjuanb1]

I’m basically a Libertarian. I hate government in my life in any way, shape, or form, but I do wish we had free healthcare for every American. I’ve been poor my whole life so I know what it’s like to not have health insurance. If our taxes can pay for Iran to have nuclear power, and to give $4,000/month to Non-Americans fleeing their country to live here for who the f$co knows why, then that money can surely go to those who pay taxes in the form of free healthcare.

 

[Bigmurph6]

Its true but this country is so fucked up socialized medicine would be a shit show from state to state SMH

 

[Bigmurph6]

They shouldn’t be giving money for anything that you mentioned I can’t believe this government SMH

 

[johnjuanb1]

Very true.

 

[JLee]

We give so much of our money to OTHER countries when we should use that to help our citizens first. We have homeless and sick too. Didn’t mean to rant in the middle of your discussion.

 

[johnjuanb1]

They’re real good at pissing away our money.

 

[Bigmurph6]

They can’t even get medical marijuana right lol