Gym Rants - Fitstudboi Log

[Ironside]

I’m not familiar with where the quote came from and maybe it wasn’t the same quote but something similar was on the wall in my martial arts gym a few years ago. Where did it come from originally?

 

[fitstudboi]

Well i guess it might be a hard one…well i just so happen to be flipping though some music options on direct tv and saw a reggae catagory and decided to give a listen…and a bob Marley song was on…that’s where i heard it and since it appears he has been dead before i was born i assume he originated it…but i know reggae music redo western music into reggae versions a lot alot…or add parts into their music

 

[Islandswole]

Actually Marcus Garvey originally quoted it.

 

[fitstudboi]

So it was from him first? Ooh i see. That i did n9t know…he was waay before i was born

 

[fitstudboi]

So a lil story…

On april 1st…i got my blood work done…now i have been on low dose trt for a while now and the readings are generally after blood work…upper 500s and been trying to get the doc to up it but he says its fine and wont…

So…

Sometimes i wound skip a week and all honesty…i was never regular with it…but i had gotten the idea…instead of 1 ml shot…just add like a a lil more like up to the next bar…but thats like every 8 or 10 days and some times 13 days

So i got my blood work from april first…1300…he was like thats waay too high!!..

and i am baffled how!!!..

So he said take it every two weeks from now on thats too high…and then in 6 weeks (a lil over a week left) come get another blood work

I did notice i was shaving by the end of the day…a hair cut last 3 days … in hind site… my pee had developed a organy smelly…like a raw smell…cant explain…dont mean to gross out…just something i noticed. Which was the same thing i notices when my liver apparently was swollen last summer

So i thought no way… then so…i decided…

To stop completely…to see with it that high… if it show up cery low test in 6 weeks then that means the blood work was off …and as well…maybe finally he will allow for a stronger dose…because i will lie and say i have been taking every two weeks… i have been trying for years to get him to just give me refills and up the amount to atleast 250 because i did not think 200 once a week was doing it…subtle changes for the better yes…but was still lagging and had to rely on other stimulants to help me feel closer to my self…

I did notice now i am back to shaving once a week…drive is very low like before all around but pushing through till next results and plan to start up again…

Because it was a low dose…i figured i could stop instantly…if it was higher i would have consulted you guys on here on a proper way to get off temporarily ofcourse @PHD.

And three weeks before i need another haircut. Taking a likening to knittiing…:rofl:j/k

So yah a bunch of other things…the organy pee smell went away…

So i know its way low…so i hope i can finally get what i want

 

[fitstudboi]

Ugh…descent set back…work buddy …we are a two man crew…injured himself so i have been solo for a minute…but still hanging in there…meniscus tear he ended up with. But things will get under control by the second week of june…still managing… embarrassing to admit 1 to two days a week except the last two weeks…but back on that for two days for now and diet plan provided which has helped greatly by @PHD which is helping control excessive weight gains…fml

 

[Islandswole]

Keep pushing bro, you got this.

 

[Ironside]

Just keep on keepin on brother

 

[John]

Hey buddy, work is work, and without it, your extracurricular activities are hard to do, so keep trucking, you got this so drive forward, and push fucking hard.

 

[PHD]

Keep your head up buddy. Like I said in email keep your water up and stay on your meal plans. Get gym in when you can. Work comes first gym doesn’t pay the bills.

 

[fitstudboi]

Well if i become a fitness stroodle model it can

 

[Ominous]

I enjoy reading this log. And I am also motivated by your journey to a better you. We all have ups and downs. And seeing your log gives some of us a bit of a push to do our best to keep it up.
Thank you for kicking ass. And letting us know how it is going.

 

[fitstudboi]

HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY! I hope its a nice relaxing one for u. I hope you had a nice weekend as well

 

[Ironside]

There he is! You been chasing squirrels again hahaha

 

[fitstudboi]

omg if u only knew…

 

[John]

Enlighten us…

 

[fitstudboi]

late yes but so…yah…u know when u are a entrepreneur and u think u have those involved that are benefitting greatly in fact more than u are and they always bail when its time to help with a process…or find a way to criticize that it wasn’t a good idea to do so much and its your fault for having to do so much…even though you clearly…VERY…clearly expressed the logic behind the whole reason…so this excuses them from being obligated to help?..(yes…extremely long question)

I end up in this twice a year for a couple months sometimes 3

This so happens to happen the last two years at the peak of me finally reaching my goal. In my fitness…and the envious energy that be that is hating all the compliments and positive shocked reaction i would get on my transformation happening…capitalizes in a sense on my now technically 24 hrs a day obligation…by providing stress food…that is the norm for them

I was not going to get involved in this process this year…because every year since we got this client its opposition galore and when i do it any ways…which earned us recognition the last 3 years since we started…i am left at a big loss

Because i go broke to make something successful and to create other processes to help expedite thing so the damage is not that bad from ending up going it alone…

So first week of april…after i tried in january to get the committment going through my business buddy to the client etc…he refused it two early…so after 3 weeks of bugging in january…i took it as a sign to leave it alone this year and let him handle it…

I was going to even remove myself completely from that job…

Since someone who hasn’t lifted a finger on the research…learning and product mixtures…gonna tell me something is too soon…

So in first week of april he comes and ask me if i am could get some stuff from my source for the project like i did prior…

I wasn’t going to but if he fails and unsuccessful this year…the clients know my face as well so i am also tagged on the failure…

So now over a month behind processes…the messing up of fitness goals begin…

while i am the source and the venture to this aspect of the business is mine…its my business partners client…he made the connection…

That business partner is also a best friend…that introduces you as the assistant…

Its complicated…but i saw a movie that perfectly identifies my situation…

The green hornet…

I am kato

Watch that movie…its exactly my deal…i was like wtf?? I didn’t remember being interviewed?!

Ok so i don’t slow time nor can fight like that that’s the only difference…

Ok

And i am not asian…

…in my world i am surrounded by all who believes ignorance is bliss…get a lot but do the easy stuff or little to get it…the less you know the better…

I was not designed that way…i want to be awesome at anything i get a hold of…i am a perfectionist and i want anything i get involved with to be the best…so i end up holding the responsibilities if making it all happen…

I am able to learn thing extremely fast and become well versed on them pretty much withing a day or two at most.

Especially with google and youtube!! .so i have many interests and growing…only harmful or dangerous things i don’t attempt…but i do look into to find out what’s the hype is about.

I have resolved to things that and lessons that i know…and made peace with my world of non team players i ended up in…

I realize that over time all the ones that ended up in my world same as the first of that kind…i gave permission too…

I have abnormal patience…so i realise…while i can sit straight for how ever many hrs it takes to count 5 million beans…

Many don’t have that.

Just don’t throw something else at me in the middle of counting bean…

That when i get…um…

Squirrely

So…i dont look at all that in the big picture…as bad…

But it makes me even more resourceful and resilient.

But thank goodness i have @PHD and a physical trainer i have on hand that comes to my gym twice a week…

I did that because as a safety because of how things are with me fml

Well u asked to be enlightened

 

[Islandswole]

I don’t believe I just read all of this … holy ranting. Breathe brother, breathe.

 

[fitstudboi]

u read it fast!!! I barely finished two minutes

 

[Islandswole]

Hahaha it was the only way I could make it through !