Diary of a middle aged, fat, broken mans comeback

[Dirtnasty]

Like I said I always found strangers easier to tell shit to

 

[Afgvet]

That’s awesome bro. Glad to hear it

 

[John]

I just had a appt yesterday with the talk therapist not the meds therapist, anyways it felt good to off load some junk from my BHG

 

[John]

It’s easier to spill my guts to some lady I don’t know, it’s also easier to talk to a female for me then a male

 

[Afgvet]

I’ve always talked to a female therapist too.

 

[Afgvet]

They’re more likely to cry than a male therapist

 

[John]

I never seen one cry yet male or female

 

[Afgvet]

Well it doesn’t get much worse than marjah

 

[John]

Guess my war stories weren’t bad enough, and I’d quit if my therapist cried, I ain’t paying them to cry.

 

[Dirtnasty]

Yeah there their to kind of be non emotional and help you with yours if your crying as therapist it’s proobablh not the right job for you

 

[John]

I woulda laughed,then walked the fuck out.

 

[NeuroRN]

Talking to a therapist used to give me such anxiety… and I would half ass it etc. I don’t know why, probably just the right therapist, I realized that I GET to say all the fucked up shit I think in my head to this person… As long as I’m not a threat to myself or anyone else,
I’m paying them to listen. Be invested in my growth. Non judgmental. And then I get to leave all that fucked up ness at her office…

I dunno.
To me there’s something so good about saying all that shit out loud. With no good or bad context. It’s just the shit that sits in my brain that is usually the root cause of my finally blowing up. Now when I’m in between therapist for whatever reason I can feel all that building up like a physical weight.

Proud of you for going, even if you sit in silence been there too.

 

[Afgvet]

Yea someone told me that that was unprofessional & should have made me uncomfortable…he was in the army, so you can guess my obviously response.

 

[Afgvet]

Those two crying female therapist, helped me more than any of the others combined. It says something about every other therapist who is exactly the same going through the numbers slated no real engagement to you or their last 8 patients.

 

[John]

I use to half ass my appointments, but what’s the point, I’d just be fucking myself, I gotta say I was definitely high as hell (weed) and it helps me be more open and relaxed. I told her I smoke all the time, I wonder if she realizes I’m high every session.

 

[John]

Well apparently crying therapists help you,so have at it.

 

[Afgvet]

These ladies were vulnerable enough to bring their emotion into my therapy to reach me on my level and form that connection that helped inspired me to trust and heal.

 

[Afgvet]

Haha. A therapist or any person hearing my stories and not crying is suspect. A fraud.

 

[John]

If I wanted to talk to a crying woman I’d tell my wife my problems, I need someone professional, so if I break down they can help me, not cry with me.

 

[Dirtnasty]

If I wanted to talk to crying lady I would make convo diring sex