Dirts off-season log
- Thread starter Dirtnasty
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I mean it be a waste of the money I paid my coach but naw I just got to get back in and be consistent and I’ll be fine that stomach bug fucked me this week and I got a rave in few I know will probably fuck up two days as I’m old and need three to recover from dancing till the morning time
Did the gym 375 for set of 5 cg nebemch rpe 6.5 I’d say was the main lift. Met ex cause she wanted to take me out for birthday dinner. When she yo place I warned her I was feeling the best I’ve been depressed lately so not to expect me to be the guy with t jokes or anything. I’m not sure how long into our time there but not long she proceeded to do the thing we she is goig tj bring up other women and the past. Only this time let’s make it even worse. When we first got together I would be real jumpy if she would just reach for dick or be aggressive trying to get sex. I worked hard over the time being together to not have this reaction cuaae I understood why it may not be good for her. But I told that yes I had that reaction with other women and I do becuase I was sexually abused as child. For some reason she felt the need to ask again about it. If I’m already feeling depressed why would yih ask me about something I did from be being abused. Happy birthday to me
she has borderline personality disorder
Whatever it is I’ve told so many times that it’s why we can’t be together and she just tells me I’m gaslighting her. Trying to help a person then leaving when they tell you they don’t have a problem isn’t gaslighting. If I was telling her she was crazy and then staying trying g to control her life that a gaslighting if I didn’t think she really loved me this would be easy. I t guess this is what it’s like to fully cut the drug addict out of your life so they may eventually get better. I’ll never know if she does but I hope so. I’m not sure happyiness is ever really I. The books for me long term but I still hope everybody that has been a part of my life finds it’s
Forgot
Squats 525x5 with the legit plates as I didn’t have normal squat rack 445x3x3
Pause dead’s 455x3 405x3x3
Single arm cable rows 3x12-85
Felt terrible but it was needed. Will post the lift is did this week either tonight or tomorrow
Squats 525x5 with the legit plates as I didn’t have normal squat rack 445x3x3
Pause dead’s 455x3 405x3x3
Single arm cable rows 3x12-85
Felt terrible but it was needed. Will post the lift is did this week either tonight or tomorrow
