Last night I broke my rule about using drugs to get high, My kidneys can’t handle any alcohol, and I’ve had a lot of anxiety lately. I haven’t taken any drug to feel high in years so last night I took a research benzodiazepine to feel high while enjoying my cheat meal. I woke up in the middle of the night in so much pain it took hours to fall back asleep. I slept on my hand and broke it. Won’t be lifting weights for awhile. I see it as God’s way of saying, “Don’t do drugs asshole!” But everything happens for a reason. I’ll just focus on fat reduction by fasting everyday until noon and up the cardio. My arthritic joints, tendons, and ligaments can use a break anyway. I’m going to make the best of it.